dreams – Smile It Won't Suck Forever

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I just had this hyper-realistic dream and like. I don’t even know what to make of this lmao

I was sitting in this park, on a bench, looking up at the night sky and all the stars and stuff, and I blinked and suddenly the entire sky was different. I’m talking different constellations, the sky absolutely packed with billions more stars, some so close they’re massive. I’m like wtf and suddenly I realise there’s an old man sitting next to me, dressed in like 1940s clothing, also looking up at the sky.

before I can ask him if he’s you know, noticed, he speaks, without looking away from the sky.

“this is what the universe really looks like,” he tells me.

“oh,” I say. a pause. “…can you put it back?”

he smiles and nods. I look up. the sky has gone back to normal.

“what do I do with this information?” I ask, looking at him again.

he turns his head and, smiling, looks me dead in the face. "be careful.“

listen i had to draw it

I love this.

This is beautiful.

Dreams are getting weirder and weirder.

Dream!me was in college and we went on some trip and found infected folks (zombies? monsters?) who we strapped down and brought back with us on our travel bus. At some point we picked up some other people and I think it became a school bus… like… a big yellow bus from high school. Some girl with a lot of luggage (and a cello?) sat next to me until we stopped again at Walmart? On the way back we (my other peers? Friends? Classmates?) were talking about something in a magazine? and I was now sitting next to Jared Leto who was rubbing his face against mine as if he was a cat? But Dream!me wasn’t upset and just kinda nuzzled him back? There were just a bunch of trees on the side of the highway on this leg of the trip and…

Then I woke up.

Really random but you know the lines from the song that goes “a dream is a wish your heart makes when you’re fast asleep”? As a kid i hated that.

My dreams when I was a child and teenager (and young adult tbh) were mostly nightmares. For as long as I can remember I’ve always dreamed about monsters and demons (not the romanticized versions that we love in various works of fiction and fandom). I’ve always dreamed about abandonment and loved ones dying… of falling off cliffs to my death. There have been dreams of drowning – several times… sometimes after being tortured. Oh and the sheer number of apocalyptic dreams! (I should probably talk about those with my therapist?)

I have so many nightmares that they’re no longer scary. (And one of my apocalypse dreams left me remarkably calm when I woke up. There was a big blue goddess standing with me as we watched the world implode… from space…)

So if a dream is a wish that my heart made while I was fast asleep, what the actual hell?

I had weird dreams last night. Weird for me dreams.

In one, I sprouted a penis… but wasn’t freaked out about it. It was just like ‘oh… *deedle deedle dee*’ I played with it, not sexually or anything. It was just this weird thing on my body. I was fascinated. At some point I finally left the bathroom to get on with my day.

In another dream, this stray dog/fox/wolf creature was out in my yard. It walked by my dog Scooter twice, came up on my porch while Scooter was still in the yard. It grinned at me, them jumped over the rail of my porch, landed on Scooter with it’s mouth open. It had Scooter in it’s mouth by by his midsection. Scooter yelped and squirmed and managed to get out. The creature left. Scooter was okay is. He wasn’t bleeding out, even though there were opened wounds. I cleaned them, then the dream gets fuzzy.

Did I eat something weird last night or what?